OMG!

I have terrible pop songs stuck in my head.  Mike made Molly her own file on Spotify.  At least she's not watching as much tv. I guess.  I did finally find some batteries for the camera, so I should be able to get a little work done.  I have to figure out that whole Gimp thing though, which is a long story and probably really boring.  I am super tired today because someone is teething. And I had forgotten about it and I couldn't figure out why he would sleep in my arms but scream bloody murder as soon as I put him down at one o'clock this morning.  And then he wanted to eat at five in the morning.  But here he is still beautiful.   

That's my boy!

 I know, I know.  The doctor told me already.  They don't teeth until six months.  Trust me; he's teething.  Well, I guess I will turn the Star Trek Voyager on and try to do some knitting.

Maternal Love is a Complex Thing

I haven't given up on breastfeeding, but I'm afraid poor little Linus has.  He is just so hungry.  I'm trying to decide what to best expend my energy on.  He seems so much happier with a bit of formula in him. Or perhaps because the delivery system is faster.  I don't know.  It's also easier for me to get up with him at night if I don't have to spend an hour and a half feeding him each time.  

I'm also concerned about the fatigue induced indifference that I feel towards him at times.  He always looks so worried and I want so much to reassure him.  But sometimes I just lay there and listen to him cry because I don't want to get up.  I feel like I'm in a depression medication commercial.  And I feel like I failed.  Again.  I failed at something I wanted to do.  Except that I have found that I don't want to do it all the time.  I'm just a big bag of contradictions I guess.  

To end on a happier note:  He's growing and he's started to coo and smile a little.  He looks around a lot.  At least now Molly can feed him sometimes. :)

 

Halloween Pictures

I actually got about six hours of sleep last night!  Yay!  I'm having trouble mentally, emotionally, physically keeping up with how much this kid needs to eat.  I have plenty of milk, but just not the energy.  So, I've been supplementing.  The upside, he sleeps so good.  :0)

Here's a couple pics from Trick or Treating. 

Poor little Linus peed his pants and got upset and had to quit trick or treating early.  Then Daddy tried to feed him and he threw up.  But Molly had a good time and got lots of candy.

 

Linus Virgil

Well, here he is, in all of his perfection. :0)

 

Progress!

The baby's room is painted and just about ready for curtains and furnishings.  Yay!  His placenta has moved up and is out of the way.  I go to the OB on Thursday and hopefully find out what we'll do from there.  I bought some pjs over the weekend to wear at the hospital.  Now I just need an overnight bag.  :D  And actually, I'm making some wool slippers that I think I shall wear.  That's one thing I distinctly remember from having Molly, cold feet, even with socks.

Well, I have a busy week ahead and this kid is really wearing me out. 

Oh, I have to mention, HOORAY! for the Libyan rebels! 

Everything's A Mess!

We are trying to finish up the baby's room and just about everything that's been stored in it is at the top of the stairs or in the living room.  Molly's room is a giant mess.  Did you know it's the middle of August??!!!!!!!!!!! That means we only have about SIX weeks!  I had really hoped to have more done by now!  

Freak out!

Freak out!

Freak out!

I have been staying busy, but I've been taking it easy at the same time with my all day kindergarten still have to get up at seven even if I don't sleep well thing going on.  But now, I must really get busy, eh?  Maybe I'll sleep better if I wear myself out more.  Yeah, that's it.

Freak out!

Freak out!

Freak out!

I think I need to do a Facebook ban.  I keep reading articles about politics and stuff.  It's all driving me crazy.  Those tea party guys are making me mad.  Why do I let bullies make me mad?  They aren't worth the energy.  Except when they are in a position to make decisions about my health care needs.  I still owe the hospital money!!!!!

Freak out!

Freak out!

Freak out!

No, really.  I'm okay.  I'll take things as they come, like I usually do.  And I'll get to meet my boy soon.  :0)

Check out this etsy shop full of darling crochet patterns!

Back to the cleaning and knitting and sewing and organizing and trying not to beat the kitty.  :D  (Laughing because I have to .)

Moving On Up!

Good news first.  The baby's placenta has moved away from the cervix and will likely continue to do so resulting in no C-section.  Yay!  Good news for Father's Day this weekend.  :0)  I think we have also decided on Linus for the first name.   I'm planning on getting some blue fleece to make a blanket with so he can carry it around with him.  We still don't know about a middle name, but I thought Peach might be fun.  Teehee!

More good news.  I am now on flickr. (Username is knittingbyheather.)  I hope you have also noticed my Twitter button.  Hopefully I did that right.  I'm going to try and think up something clever to post on Twitter at some point.  Something about Wieners maybe?  No, I'm sure that's been done to death.  I have also signed up for Artfire finally.  I haven't posted anything up, but I do have plans for the week.  I will write a post about it soon.  

Here's a picture of a blanket that I did make for my boy already.  Somehow the picture came out a bit crooked.  I don't have time to be a perfectionist though!  :0)

 It's my first blanket with batting.  I did strings because I don't have the patience to actually learn how to quilt right now.  Or the time.  Maybe when Linus goes to school.  :0)