I Miss Sleep

It's been like a week, since I last posted, hasn't it?  Has it?  I'll have to look.  

My boy is getting big and smiley.  My girl is getting tall and has turned into a bit of a smarty pants. I am assuming this is age appropriate at this point.  As someone who has a hard time allowing my own true emotions show, I'm mostly okay with it.  I can't wait until I have two kids double teaming me though!  :D  

Our money situation has improved.  I can finally pay off my epidural in a few more weeks!  Yay!   

The batteries that I found for the camera stopped working, so I had to buy some.  I am about to make a pile of items to photograph this afternoon to post on etsy.  Yay!  And I am also making a Rapunzel wig out of my yellow yarn for Molly.  Ha!   It should be funny.

Pictures to come.
 

OMG!

I have terrible pop songs stuck in my head.  Mike made Molly her own file on Spotify.  At least she's not watching as much tv. I guess.  I did finally find some batteries for the camera, so I should be able to get a little work done.  I have to figure out that whole Gimp thing though, which is a long story and probably really boring.  I am super tired today because someone is teething. And I had forgotten about it and I couldn't figure out why he would sleep in my arms but scream bloody murder as soon as I put him down at one o'clock this morning.  And then he wanted to eat at five in the morning.  But here he is still beautiful.   

That's my boy!

 I know, I know.  The doctor told me already.  They don't teeth until six months.  Trust me; he's teething.  Well, I guess I will turn the Star Trek Voyager on and try to do some knitting.

Off To A Good Start-Maybe....

I was going to put some new stuff on etsy yesterday, but my camera has no batteries, my 2nd annual After Christmas Sale went well and I don't actually have any new stuff made, and I have lots of extra laundry to do because I can't afford diapers.  

However,  I do have twenty five dollars in my paypal account and I am super psyched about that.  I also have LOTS of ideas.  I also found even more new resolve this week and I am super psyched about that.  (I think.  Or am I delirious with fatigue?)  

Now to go find my ToDo List notebook, so I can organize my thoughts, and thus my actions.  And as Neil said on The Young Ones, "Everyone knows sleep gives you cancer!"

:D

A List For You

I know how much everyone in the blogging world loves lists.  So, here's mine for the year.  Hopefully, I won't do anymore for awhile.  I like reading them myself, but writing them-not so much.  
I think that the whole resolution thing is crap.  I prefer to set goals and work towards them.  I don't always accomplish my goals, but I usually get pretty close. So, anywhere, here it is, my list of goals for 2012.

1.  I would like to lose about twenty pounds, but really, I need exercise.  Mike and I embarked on a plan to eat less meat (which is a bad idea when you are pregnant-just saying) several months ago. It's going well, but I have been craving all kinds of things postpartum.  The boy is almost three months old now though, and it's time to get to work.  When I get a stroller Molly and I can walk to school in the morning.  
In other words, my first goal is to eat better, get more exercise, and buy a stroller.   One thing I have learned recently is that Boca Burgers are AWESOME!  :0)


2.  Whenever I renew stuff on etsy, or create a treasury, or anything at all, I usually get a response and I usually get a positive one.  While it has taken me a long time to realize that most attention I get is actually positive, I know now, and I'm out of excuses.  The trolls don't seem to be hitting up etsy at this time and if they ever do, fuck 'em.  They are the losers, because they have nothing better to do than sit around typing nasty things to people they don't know.  It's sort of like when Lord Voldemort enters Harry Potter's body and Harry says, I feel sorry for you,  because you will never know friendship.
So, goal #2 is make money.  I can do it.  I know I can.
Part of this goal is that I have to do good things with this money that I'll be making, like paying off debt, saving money, and getting my daughter dance lessons or karate or whatever it is she wants to do.


3.  Stop yelling.  I think this one is self-explanatory.


4.  Basically, I'm going to make all my dreams come true. And I'm going to do it my way, yes, my way.  :0)


Again, here's to a great 2012! 

2011

I decided to come back a day early because I am excited to get back to work.  I have still been reflecting a bit on my life and all that I've been through over the past year.

I have noticed since having given birth to my son, that when I look in the mirror I no longer see something to hate, but rather, a normal person.  As Christmas came and went this year, I realized that there is no longer anything holding me back.  What once made me feel incompetent and invisible is now falling on deaf ears.  I am human, hear me roar!

I have been thinking about what kind of people I want my children to grow up to be.  The most important things that I want for them to be is kind-hearted and adaptable.  I don't want them to get lost in the ideas of the past and settle for a way of life that does not serve them or the people they love.  And I want them to live for themselves.  I actually told Molly the other day that her life is her own, to do with what she wants.  (However, I do fear her tendency towards control freakdom--Did I just make up a word?) 


I remember once in my life when what I had planned out for myself became impossible.  I was a tender 18, and the one thing I realized then, was that no longer was I tied down to a vague, yet rigid plan of action, but that the possibilities of where my life went were endless.  If only I had gained the confidence then that I have now.  Sigh!  But the time for living in regret is gone for me now.  I feel that way again.  There are a million possibilities opening up before me again.


While I'll never be a doctor or a musician,  and I'll always be with Mike and I'll always be a mom, there are now so many roads that I can go down.  I can't wait to see what the next 36 years bring.  Hopefully it will be good and cancer free! 

Happy Christmas, etc.!

I don't know if I have a cold or the flu, but it is kicking my ass! And I keep having to suck the baby's nose out, because he seems to be sick as well.  Molly keeps trying to get me to do stuff for her.  She's still sick too. 

When I look back over the last year, I am happy with all that I've managed to accomplish.  I made a whole human being albeit not exactly on purpose.  My daughter no longer hangs onto me crying, and saying, "I want Momma, I want Momma,"  when I try to leave her somewhere.  In fact, the last time I left her she cried because I came back too early.  Yay!  

Things are looking up for the next year and I can't wait to see how things play out. Barring unforeseen issues and events, I think it will be a good year. Of course, it's hard to be optimistic when the baby is crying, the six year old is yelling at me, and I can't breathe through my nose.  

I hope everyone has a good Holiday Season! 
I'll be back on January 4, 2012.
For now I'm going to see if I can take a shower.  :D

Scrap Hat

I went to visit my grandmother and she was making an afghan out of the leftovers of all her yarn.  The wheels in my head began to turn.  I made a hat for a birthday party we went to as an experiment:

That's the same hat, I just flipped it over.  The two year old I made it for looked especially cute in it.  I think it would be neat to make them more color coordinated.  So, this is going down on my list of things to do.  :D